I have a feeling that the last few days of this experiment are going to work in the same way as compounding interest, almost all of my gains will come in these days.
“WE MUST ALWAYS FIRST BECOME SUCCESSFUL BEFORE WE GET PAID TO BE SUCCESSFUL”
I am going to make one last confession to you about trading here in the experiment. I know I have talked about this before but this goes with yesterday: I have not been doing what I need to do. I haven’t been working hard enough or believing that if I do that work, something different is possible.
I have let myself fall victim to “The Nothing” that I talked about yesterday. It is a perfect description for resistance. The resistance wants us to believe that we are powerless, that we are not the main characters of our stories and that we need a force greater than our own thinking that will shower us with benevolence to accomplish what we desire. All of my concerted effort is going into this one pursuit right now.
CHANGE THE DOMINANT THOUGHTS. DO IT TODAY. THAT’S ALL I HAVE TO DO
I need to become successful before I have can have anything to show for it, not have everything and then be successful. It is simple but it just doesn’t work the way we think it does. I think we have a tendency to look around at what everyone else is doing and say once I get there, then I am successful. Well I can almost guarantee that you will not get there until you are successful today.
What does that mean for me? I have to put in my hours on the charts. Not actually trading necessarily but just being in the game. I took on a new project last week. I am replacing head gaskets on a 2001 Land Rover which means I have the engine apart down to the block. This was a no joke job to do myself. And it hit me, if I approached that project the same way I have been approaching trading, it would never ever get done. I would take a bolt off and then sit down and whine about how hard this is and well things could go wrong and I may never complete this and and and.
And then it hit me! The only difference between taking an engine down to the block to change a part that will make a car run better and in turn make my life better and trading to make my life better is I DON’T FEAR ONE OF THEM. I believe that no matter how long it takes, I can fix this problem with the car and get it back to working order. That’s my dominant thought in this situation. I am in control and I can do this. The dominant thought in trading is still opposite. I am going to lose it all and no matter how hard I try, it will never work. And then instead of making a concerted effort to get under the hood of trading, I walk away and think that it should be easier…
Damn this attitude. It’s amateur to the core… but its a simple fix. Change my thinking and change my life.